Should I?

Inspiration...not enough?
How about too much?
Why or how is that a problem you ask?
Well, as incredibly grateful as I am about feeling awe-struck on a regular basis, my difficulty lies in using this gift constructively.


You are correct. Inspiration isn’t really the problem; cleverly managing my self discipline is! I get easily caught up in all of the amazing-ness around me. Call it sensory overload, so many ideas and possibilities - who hasn’t peeked at Pinterest and got lost for hours scrolling through all that wonder? Or given in to the temptation of ALL those books to read among other distractions?


Maybe I am over ambitious, lazy, slack, too hard (or easy) on myself or a combination of all of the above, organisational fine points are tricky. For me.
Reining it all in and focusing on one or two projects at a time is challenging. Using time efficiently is super challenging.


My life load is fairly average - juggling teaching, library shifts, commuting, study, domestic bliss (me and the fur balls) and parenting from a distance (which basically means they call me when they need something). Nothing overly demanding.


It’s not that I don’t manage, I do. On the surface, I’m doing ok. I make and create often. I just don’t feel as on top of it as I could or should be.
Yep, I could do more.
Should I? (Don’t you love that word - should, uh-huh).
Perhaps that is the million dollar question...who says I should?
Umm...I do?
On whose authority?
Ahh...mine?
Give your/myself a break!


Maybe it isn’t about any of these things? After all, a problem is only a problem if we let it be one. Owning and accepting my pace, my processes, quietening down my mental 🤪mind, letting it all simply BE and enjoying where ever it takes me. Slow and steady, full of gratefulness. (I feel better already).